~~~~Still here ~~~~~

Plans have changed... I have not returned to work at this point and am working on my healing still. There have been continued tests and evaluations that are hopefully going to work out some lingering issues. I recently had a CT of my brain and eyes after experiencing eye pain in the back of my left eye. The pain was waking up me out of a sleep, so I felt it needed looked into. Good news is the Ct scans came back clear, bad news is my neurologist feels it is all neurological. It seems that the neurological part of this nightmare is what is causing me the problems. I have started a new medication for the neuro issues and hopefully it will calm some things down. Again, time will tell. I have only been taking this new medication for 2 days, so I am keeping my fingers crossed.

I didn't think I would continue the blog but I kind of feel that this portion of my experience is where I may be able to help others the most. The recovery has been difficult for me and my personality type. I had a major surgery and want to feel better NOW! In due time, but until then I try to stay focused in a positive light and stay on the path God leads me down. Day to day is so different. I feel as if there is something new all the time. The last 2 weeks my eye pain has started, my wrists, knees and ankles hurt so bad it is difficult to get to sleep, my neck muscles have been spasming to where it feels like someone is squeezing my throat/neck, so as you can see this can be very annoying not knowing from day to day what will appear. When I feel good I make the best of it. I actually am really feeling like a geriatric patient with all my aches and pains. I am one of the youngest people I have seen at PT, so I feel at home with the hip replacements. :)

I am really trying to deal with the pain without meds if at all possible. I am taking this new one but haven't taken a pain pill since week 2 after surgery, I am on week 13. I want to learn my new body and see what I can and can't handle, then look for other resources if I need it later in the year. I have started some natural supplements to see if it helps in any way. Continued Reike, Pt and light therapy as well. Meditation and general mental health are a big part of my healing plan and focus.

I hope that anyone out there dealing with the same issues and diagnosis can hear me say that it is a long process. Stay positive and know that time will tell. I SOOO badly want to get back to my regular life but that isn't now. I look forward to being sleepy at night from a hard day at work, evening of fun with the family and then falling asleep and actually having a good nights sleep.

It's Friday night and I'm off to watch a movie at home with my hubby. I hope you all enjoy your weekend and I will be back soon.
Faith, Strength & Love